RIP Michael Jackson 1958 - 2009

Then Almitra spoke, saying, "We would ask now of Death."

And he said:

You would know the secret of death.

But how shall you find it unless you seek it in the heart of life?

The owl whose night-bound eyes are blind unto the day cannot unveil the mystery of light.

If you would indeed behold the spirit of death, open your heart wide unto the body of life.

For life and death are one, even as the river and the sea are one.

In the depth of your hopes and desires lies your silent knowledge of the beyond;

And like seeds dreaming beneath the snow your heart dreams of spring.

Trust the dreams, for in them is hidden the gate to eternity.

Your fear of death is but the trembling of the shepherd when he stands before the king whose hand is to be laid upon him in honour.

Is the shepherd not joyful beneath his trembling, that he shall wear the mark of the king?

Yet is he not more mindful of his trembling?

For what is it to die but to stand naked in the wind and to melt into the sun?

And what is to cease breathing, but to free the breath from its restless tides, that it may rise and expand and seek God unencumbered?

Only when you drink from the river of silence shall you indeed sing.

And when you have reached the mountain top, then you shall begin to climb.

And when the earth shall claim your limbs, then shall you truly dance.

- Khalil Gibran

Michael Jackson: Thank you for a catalog of music that I will always cherish...I hope you will be remembered for your music not for a small chapter of your life, but for how you and your music impacted the world.

Adapting to a New Path

Sometime life throws you a curve ball, and sometimes it reveals a different path than the one you are currently on. Adaptability and how well you deal with change determines your success on the path.

1. No Whining and Complaining Rule - If I whine and complain about the path...I will miss out on the chance to truly view the path.

2. Make The Best Of The Situation - Now that I am on that path, find the all the good things about the it and enjoy it.

3. Surround myself with positive people who will make my journey worthwhile. Negative people suck the joy of any experience, so I have removed them from my path.

This new path could be the most amazing journey I have ever encountered.

So far I am learning to enjoy my path!

Spring is here!

I love the sights and sounds of spring. At my client site in a rural part of the south, I get to see all the new calfs, the new little goats (I think they are called kids) and the birds are chirping loudly. I have been quite busy....trying to stay busy....: ) And keep my allergies at bay!


The house has some new work done, my brother liked my home's upgrades so much he went back to NY and started work immediately on his. Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery right? Well, it kind of has me laughing, that I motivated them to do some much needed repairs. Oh well....I am always glad to inspire.

While traveling I decided it was time for a new toy. I have not had a new car in the past 3.5 years. So I went out and got what I wanted! No input from any males, or family members. I have yet to really drive it...immediately after the purchase I had to return to the client site, so other than the first initial 20 miles, I have yet to let her rip. My brother and his family got more joy out of it during their week stay. Now it is sitting in the garage...waiting for my return this Friday!

I got word from my ex boyfriend (Germany) that he is getting married. I am happy for him and of course I kicked myself one more time! Everyone has the story of the one that got away. Mr. Germany is my story....why and how did he get away? My stubborn, idiot butt, and did I mention? My stubborn and idiotic ways got the best of me. I just walked away with no real explanation to him and when I decided to explain why I was so dumb, it was a year later and miles between us could not ease the void. I should stayed with him. I was just stubborn, scared, oh yeah... stubborn and young. As the years have gone by and we have kept in touch, I realized that he is extremely happy. I am happy that he is very happy and I wish them the best!

As for me, I can't say I have been dealt a bad hand in life. I have loved 2 amazing men, Mr. Germany being one of them and my first boyfriend. Both of them, could have been my forever loves. But I let them slip past. I have come to realize that I do meet some incredible men, I am just not ready for them. So while I live what others may deem as a lonely existence....you know how some of your friends think you are not whole without a man. I must say a man does not complete me, but loves does. Only Mr. Croix and Mr. Germany had enough love to complete me. I am glad I have loved, especially those two. Maybe they have prepared me for the real thing? Who knows? Only God...when it happens, I hope he slaps the stubborness out of me.

So the cheater was not one of your great loves?

NOPE, I knew I had issues with him after the first 90 days of dating. Infidelity was an issue then, I decided to give him a chance. Well...we all know what happens when you let a snake be a snake. After the breakup from the cheater, I am extremely happy I have moved on. I had some changes I need to go thru and I feel you cannot grow with someone who is stunted in their own growth and cannot work towards a future. This breakup was necessary....I was just wasting my time. What did I learn? Time waits for no one.

I have accomplished so much in the 6 months apart than I have in the time he and I were together. I am so proud of myself for picking up the pieces, not throwing a pity party and just moving ahead 65 miles per hour! I have not looked back!

I have started a dream board (I got the idea from a Oprah show)...So far I have accomplished 2 tasks and my next goal is to find a older home with a lot of land and to refurbish it by myself! I have one in mind...I will let you know if I get it. I plan on making it my get away for family and friends...a cottage in the country. I have other tasks to accomplish as well : ) But the cottage house is a dream I want to fulfill in the coming years.

The next 6 months are about No Regrets....and I am not allowed to say I am sorry! I have a habit of apologizing for others! No more complaining and whining about the recent wrongs and injustices...I am only allowed to laugh, live out loud and to love!

So watch out world! I am back!

A New Year and I am making the changes I need!

A New Year: So, it is a new year and everyone is still hyped from the inauguration. Sadly, I did not attend. I am now consulting and my travels had me on the road. I was in a state that did not vote for Obama. What a drag! But during this economy you go where you get work. Right? I have no complaints, my company has strong reputation and a leader in consulting and my client is a great company, a very strong international one. For that I am very thankful.


Life on the road: I took a raw cooking class one evening to pass away the time in a strange city. I was impressed the instructor, she was great and the dishes were easy. I have managed to reproduce them with no problems or fancy tools. The dishes were so delightful I have made them over and over again. I was only taught 3 dishes, so I now realize I need to get a recipe book. Notice I did not say cookbook? Because in the raw food movement, nothing is cooked. There are some dishes that are use heat of 110 degrees, but that is hardly cooking or not even a hot dish! LOL. When food is "cooked" it is dehydrated and that is a little better than warming up the dish.


Clearing out the bad food and bad characters: I have to get rid of the meat in my freezer and some other bad foods I have stored but I have been eating more veggies than normal and I have noticed a huge difference. I am less agitated and very calm. I could attribute it to getting rid of some drama I had in my life. LOL! Long story but the short version is I got rid of dead weight. See my post from June of 2006 if you want to know who the dead weight is. I should have learned my lesson. Some people never change and that man is one of them. I have branded him as a Liar and a Cheater. No one refers to him by name, they call him that. He has the nerve to call me every so often. WHAT? He should call Barbara....the woman he called such ugly names and talked about so badly...was actually the women he cheated with. Silly me....I now realize what a waste of time. I realized that having drama like that brings negative energy and it caused me some unnecessary pain. I am lucky I have such good intuition, something made me just stop and ask him what was going on. I asked him that the day after he cheated. I then became suspicious of him, his stuttering and goofiness was a good clue. Then the truth was revealed by a very insecure, immature and silly person, all I could do was laugh and say really? I already knew. He was so desperate acting in the following days after the call, trying to throw my suspicions off and swearing the call had nothing to do with him. I look back and I thank my intuition. It saved me from going any further. Anyway, I digress.....my life has more going on than that temporary blip on my radar. Trust me that blip's fading fast. I would like to say I did learn something. You can never go backwards! You have to move forward and make progress! Life is too short! This is not a dress rehearsal! So out with the bad and in with the good. It has been all good since! Very good in fact!


Progress! I am making great progress...meeting great people and leaving behind the drama and the nonsense. Life is too short! Mine life is meant to be lived and to shine! I have also been volunteering again. See the photo below from the volunteer event on MLK day.